I felt so lonely today. And still. I just feel like I'm floating around stopping in every now and then to say hello or check up on things in other peoples lives. I don't feel like I have one of my own. Sometimes I wonder if I am slowly losing touch with everything, or I'm finally realizing what I need to start doing with my life and what I need to do.
I feel reckless. My emotions are never subtle.
I'm always second guessing myself. This disease has left me with nothing but questions.
I just get this clarity in this terribly dark moment and it just feels unreal. It gets me high, I get crazy and impulsive. Is this that moment? Or is it real? Should I give into my heart and self and risk failure or settle with what I have and hope it'll change? Thinking is making me insane right now.
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