I don't know what's going on anymore.

Definitely fading in and out.

I laid in my bathtub today, and held my head under and it felt so peaceful. I wanted to just fall asleep there and not wake up.

The worst thing to say is I'll be ok.

I wish I could just spill the beans on everything, but there isn't a goddamn person to spill my beans to.

I have always been this way, I don't know why it's so surprising when it gets like this.