Actually I have no idea what's going on with joel anymore.

He called me and went on about how he missed me and blah blah blah...

Apparently my age bothers him. I figured, but I don't even think about our ages.

With everything else going on I've just been completely unhappy.

If I don't move soon I'm going it kill myself.

I do have a plan set up. Hopefully I grow up and get it done.