so today was pretty awesome except the following: this woman at work said i needed to get laid and told everyone that i follow guys around like a dog. all because i'm friends with this guy. we talk about books. i don't know where she gets the following part... and she didn't believe me when i said i have a boyfriend. what a bitch. then i get home and joel texts me.
apparently he's been saved. i think it's some sort of april fools joke, but he wants to hang out tomorrow so he can tell me all about it. jesse says he doesn't care, but i think a little part of him does, but he knows joel and i are just friends. me and dad hung out for a bit. i bought ten packs of cigarettes on special before the prices went up. i plan on quitting. lets see how that goes... i'm also getting a new car sometime this week or next. it's a cute saturn. i'm excited. let's hope i don't wreck it, because i bet next time i'll die.
so today i was thinking. big deal right?
but have you ever had to hold someone's secret? like a terrible one, not one of those "i cheated on my boyfriend" or "i stole a library book once" like about three years ago someone told me their terrible secret. and i'm just sitting here keeping it. we aren't friends anymore, but i know i'll never tell. i think mostly because it's so terrible that i'm afraid that they'll hate me, like it was my secret. i wish i never knew. it still makes me sick. i try not to care. oh well.
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