so much to do, so little time.

lately i have been keeping to myself, out in the real world. i hate when i shut myself in.

i just went through to try and see what i did on my past birthdays.

i never really celebrate my birthday. the thought of maybe doing something is weird to me.

probably nothing with joel, since he doesn't seem to know when it is.

hopefully i'm not left disappointed.

i have tried to message my brother on facebook. i feel so lame, i don't even know what to say.

like i have started, deleted, started, deleted... for two days now.

what is wrong with me?