so yesterday i called my mom and my little brother picked up. i talked to him for a bit. he's eleven and didn't even know who i was when talking to him. i've only seen him twice since he was a baby. i feel terrible not knowing him, you know? i mean it's understandable why i feel that way. what's going to happen when we are older and he's out of school? i hate this distance between us. i forget about them. my mom tries to get me to move out there like two of my sisters did, but i can't. my life is here, not in pittsburgh. i already feel lonely in this small town, putting me in a big city would make matters worse. my dad made a dinner, just me and him though. we didn't eat together, it was boring. i watched clowns on tv do a rendition of goldie locks. then i went to walmart. on my way home i noticed my boss was at work so i went in a helped her decorate for christmas. then i went with her and her kids to big lots to buy some more decorations, and her oldest daughter kept following me around. it was kind of like a temporary little sister. hahaha, i guess she looks up to me. sherry told me that once. i just feel like i use people.
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