i've decided that i am done.

i'm not going to care.

i no longer care about anyone.

i will try not to care about you.

i wil not care that you do not care.

if you want to be alone for the rest of your life and ignore the people who are trying to be there. then so be it.

i'm tired of things not going my way. i'm tired of not settling and wanting something better in life.

i thought maybe, just maybe, things wouldn't be crap.

maybe there is something wrong with me. i don't even know why i'm typing this.

i know exactly what i'm thinking. i know how it goes.

five minutes from now, i'll get a pang of regret.

i know in five minutes i'll want to talk to you.

i'll want you to talk to me.

in five minutes.

i don't get it though, i really don't.

i know what i'm think but at the same time i don't. i don't get it and i never will.

i guess i'm "done" for now.

just now, i'd like to be happy and i want someone to be there while i'm trying to do it.

i'm not ready i guess.

i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready.